I've been thinking I need to make another post. Last I wrote
I was waiting on a negative pregnancy test. I finally got one a little over 4
weeks ago and so my next appointment is in a little less than 2 weeks. I will
meet with my Dr that day and discuss which tests she wants to run and then she
will give me the order for them so I can go to the lab to get them done. I tell
you what though; it was such a relief to finally see that negative pregnancy test.
It’s a special kind of torture to have to look at a still positive test when
you know you’re not pregnant anymore. I was so happy the day it stayed
negative!
May 28th is the date that I will have my
appointment. I’m kind of going crazy here waiting for it. I’m perfectly fine
with everything one minute and either freaking out or getting emotional about
nothing the next. It’s great fun (not)!
Also, since my last post, both my
birthday and Mother’s Day have passed. They were both a little weird for me.
First, I was sure I would be raising a little baby by this birthday, but things
don’t go the way we want them too sometimes. I was feeling a little down about
that. Then, this Mother’s Day was the first since my miscarriages, so that was
kind of hard as well. I honestly did not want to go to church, but I teach the
young women. I went because I needed to give the lesson, but I almost just
stayed in bed. I did alright through all the talks that were given. I did have
to get up and leave for a bit in the middle though. I also have to admit I couldn't and didn't listen to a majority of the talks. I kept myself distracted
by pretty much anything that I could think of. When I was paying attention, the
talks were pretty good. There was never anything said that should have bothered
me. I was experiencing one of the aforementioned moments of getting emotional
about nothing. I mean, sometimes they weren't even talking about mothers and I’d
start to cry and then I would distracting myself again so that I would stop crying. Maybe I should have payed more
attention, but I feel I did the best I could for the situation.
I get to look forward to my
seeing some of my family that lives out of state. They are visiting for my
youngest sister-in-law’s graduation. It will be nice to see everyone. I'm pretty excited. I guess that's all for now.
