It's been a while since I wrote, sad news..

So last time I was on here I wrote about a recent positive pregnancy test.

I wen to my first Dr. appointment today. It went the same as last time. I had a couple of ultrasounds and both showed a baby about 8 weeks along without a heartbeat. The Dr. seemed to think it may have been a chromosomal thing. So we're going to start with some testing. Rule out some other things first and then maybe karyotype my husband and me to see if we can find any answers. I hope we figure something out.

I get somewhat frustrated when I think that the testing could have already been done, but I get why it wasn't. All those statistics out there show that 1 miscarriage is common, and nothing is usually wrong. The pregnancy just couldn't be supported for no known reason. It's often assumed that there was a chromosomal abnormality that won't likely be repeated. After 2 pregnancies ending in miscarriage they might start testing. I'm lucky I have one of the doctors willing to do it this early. Most insurance won't cover it until after 3 miscarriages. This is also what most doctors usually do. This is all frustrating because in the cases where the problem can be identified and fixed. You had to lose 2 or 3 babies to get to the point that they would even test for it. It seems a little unfair.

I think a part of me knew that this pregnancy would end in a miscarriage. I remember after my last one that I had a distinct impression that I would have another miscarriage. I felt the spirit whisper to me that it would happen again. I didn't want to believe it, but I knew what I felt. I even told one of my sister-in-law's this last August or so. Heavenly Father was trying to prepare me for all this.

I'm having a hard time. This hurts, but at the same time I'm a bit relieved that we can move forward with testing, etc. So that's what's new. Maybe the 3rd times will be the charm? I hope so.

Staying Positive

   I am having a hard time doing this (staying positive). I'm all excited about my pregnancy most of the time, but any little thing happens and I start to freak out. I can usually keep myself mostly calm, but it's hard. It's funny, because I know the little things that happen don't really mean anything. I just worry anyway.
   My husband is getting more into it too. That's kind of cool. He's busy working and everything is going well with his business. I'm so excited he's finally out doing this!
   I took the time to go out and visit my grandma this weekend. It was a long overdue visit. I love going to see her, but I never seem to make as much time as I should to visit her. It was nice to talk with her for a few hours. I really wanted to tell her I'm pregnant, but I'll wait until I'm further along. I have my first appointment on the 28th this month. I can not wait! At the same time I am very nervous about the appointment. It was at my first appointment that I found out my babies heart had stopped last time. I told my husband that he needs to go with me, and I keep reminding him about when the appointment is. He better be there with me.
   I've been looking for another job, but now that I'm pregnant I'm thinking about staying at this job for a while. It would be a good schedule to have. We may not have to pay for daycare for the baby if I stay here. I'll have to see what turns out to be best for us.

It's Me

I decided I need to write about me, and what I'm going through. Whatever that turns out to be.
   I am Seanna, and I am happily married. My husband loves to give me a hard time, and I give it right back to him. I attend the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I love it there. If you want to meet a people who, in general, live what they are learning then this is the place to go. When you teach truth, people tend to listen. Anyway, I grew up in a very small town. I mean like 2,000 people in the whole town small. There are smaller towns out there, I know. I have an older brother who is definitely the tough guy. My parents are both amazing, and I love them.
    I went to college and have a degree in Biology. Still figuring out what I'll do with that. My husband just started his own business. I'm really hoping that takes off for him. He's an amazing artist. He makes custom wood furniture, decorations, gun stocks, etc. If it's made of wood, he can probably make it. www.furniture-yourway.com This is a link to his website. Take the time to look at it. It's worth it.
     After one previous miscarriage, I am currently pregnant again. I'm a little worried about how this will go, but I'm trying to stay positive. I'm hoping that come Oct-Nov I'll be getting to bring a baby home. My first Dr. appointment isn't for another 3 weeks. I'm kinda going crazy waiting, but that's just how it goes I guess. Wish me luck.
    I also work with disabled adults doing in-home care. It's a good job. I might also be teaching as an adjunct faculty this summer. I'd be teaching a biology class. I hope it makes!!
That's a little about me. Here's to the future!