It's been a while since I wrote, sad news..

So last time I was on here I wrote about a recent positive pregnancy test.

I wen to my first Dr. appointment today. It went the same as last time. I had a couple of ultrasounds and both showed a baby about 8 weeks along without a heartbeat. The Dr. seemed to think it may have been a chromosomal thing. So we're going to start with some testing. Rule out some other things first and then maybe karyotype my husband and me to see if we can find any answers. I hope we figure something out.

I get somewhat frustrated when I think that the testing could have already been done, but I get why it wasn't. All those statistics out there show that 1 miscarriage is common, and nothing is usually wrong. The pregnancy just couldn't be supported for no known reason. It's often assumed that there was a chromosomal abnormality that won't likely be repeated. After 2 pregnancies ending in miscarriage they might start testing. I'm lucky I have one of the doctors willing to do it this early. Most insurance won't cover it until after 3 miscarriages. This is also what most doctors usually do. This is all frustrating because in the cases where the problem can be identified and fixed. You had to lose 2 or 3 babies to get to the point that they would even test for it. It seems a little unfair.

I think a part of me knew that this pregnancy would end in a miscarriage. I remember after my last one that I had a distinct impression that I would have another miscarriage. I felt the spirit whisper to me that it would happen again. I didn't want to believe it, but I knew what I felt. I even told one of my sister-in-law's this last August or so. Heavenly Father was trying to prepare me for all this.

I'm having a hard time. This hurts, but at the same time I'm a bit relieved that we can move forward with testing, etc. So that's what's new. Maybe the 3rd times will be the charm? I hope so.